Change…

Change they say is inevitable. Of course it’s true.  For some people change is easy, for others it’s something they fear.

I have changed so much in my 5 years in Portugal, but more so in the last 6 months. Being injured made me slow down, and question everything, and even though I came to the same conclusion, the process I went through made me even more certain of what I want.

This week I started riding (again) and something has changed. I feel stronger than I ever have. I don’t let people get to me. I don’t take advice unless I ask for it, and I respect the person who is providing it.

I don’t put pressure on myself, and I’m just so happy. That’s what’s changed, and Batialo knows.

He respects me again, because I respect myself.

Everything is the same, and yet everything is different.

It’s amazing too how much better I feel about everything when I’m riding. I don’t stress about the little things, or worry that I might not be good enough, or that I’m failing, or that I should feel guilty for something that I know deep down is not my fault.

I can’t stress enough how important it is to have a passion in life. One that doesn’t rely on other people. You can be passionate about people or a person, but a life’s passion or goal is something that actually helps you in the rest of your life and in your relationships with those people.

Riding is my escape. What’s yours?

When everything around you is changing, what is the thing that holds you together?

I feel grateful everyday, and I love my life so much. It didn’t used to be like that, so I changed everything. Really everything. Except horse riding.

Once you can get used to change, you can accept when others around you change, and not feel like it’s up to you to make it better.

Change is inevitable. One month ago I had honestly given up on Batialo. Why? because I thought it would never change. Truth is I just hadn’t tried hard enough, and although I’d changed physically, mentally I was still stuck.

My new pilates trainer said to me on my first session that I was strong, I just needed to convince my mind that I was, so that I could convince my horse.

Turns out, she was right 🙂