Risk and Reward!

Sometimes, if you really want  to fulfil a life’s dream, you have to risk that you might lose it, in order to have the chance that it might one day come true.

Often we hold onto something so tight through fear, that we never give ourselves the chance to feel what it would be like to let it go.

Imagine that we each carry with us a bag full of rubbish, and while some of it may be important rubbish, some of it really does nothing good for us at all, and if we can have the courage to set the bag down we may realise how much lighter we feel without it.

Recently I made a decision that was very difficult for me to make, as it risked three of the things that are most important to me; my two horses, and my dream.

For most people it wouldn’t seem like a big deal, but for me it was, when I decided to have both horses gelded.

I know there are risks involved, and I also know that unless I took that chance, I would never know.

As it was, I had to admit to myself, as a rider, that I no longer felt safe, and that I was not capable enough, if I wanted to compete internationally, of riding a stallion in that sort of environment.

For most people my horses are very quiet, they are excellent to handle, and while Batialo likes to spin, it always looked from the ground like I had control.

So what was I fussing about?

Often what we see from the ground, is not the feeling we get on top, and while a little bit of snorting was shown on the outside, a fireball of energy was what I was experiencing from on high.

It wasn’t only that though, because today, when I put my horse out in a paddock for the first time, I felt a sense of joy that I cannot explain.

The decision, as it turns out, was the best I could have made, my horses are themselves, but they now have the freedom and sensibility to be horses, to go out, to roll, to stand next to a mare and say, ‘ah yes you’re there’, instead of, ‘oh my god holy crap lets go!’

I’m sure there are those that will criticise me, and tell me I am afraid, but is it their safety and life that is at risk on my horses?

And if they saw the look of enjoyment on my horse’s face today, as he walked briskly around his open air space, they may not be so quick to question me, and if they still did, then I would question what they value.

Moral of the story is, not everything is easy, and letting go or making changes, is usually particularly difficult, for me anyway.

Sometimes however, you just have to try, or else, well, or else you will never know 🙂 .

5 thoughts on “Risk and Reward!

  1. well done, I agree it is much pleasure to see the horse able to feel the freedom of the paddock, not have to worry about the mare. Ahh the serenity

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  2. Well done Sarah. What a huge decision to make and what a lovely life change you are giving your horses.
    I have been facing that with my horse as well but for different reasons. He is an easy ride and behaves very well when out but my concern was his health and peace of mind at home. He has only been hand served and lives out (I’m in Australia). During the ‘season’ he runs the fence and has been wearing his feet and legs out because of his hormones. We have considered a wide range of options but can not face gelding him just yet.
    Last week we put a mare (in season) in with him and held our breath. They beat the *&^%$ out of each other for a day or so but now they are both settled and the stallion has finally relaxed and is not frantic when we move other horses around the farm. Halleluiah!

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    1. It’s always a complex decision Marg, but after talking with my vet, and of course mum, i realised that for me and for my horse it was the right choice.
      But in regards to the wearing the feet and legs out, mum discovered a feed bin that has holes in it that horses play with for hours getting the feed out. Something like that may help him stay mentally active in the paddock.
      Keep me posted on what you decide, and I wish you all the best
      Sarah xo

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      1. I wish it were as simple as food, Sarah, When the hormones are up he will ignore food and just run the fence. However, now that he has a lady friend with him all the time he has settled hugely. He is also eating and gaining weight, and I have been able to leave the shoes off this trim and life seems to be returning to normal. Cheers, Marg Margaret Anderson 0417 526 453 _____

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      2. That sounds great then 🙂 Glad you have a new strategy…So much of working with horses about learning everyday what works and what doesn’t 🙂 keep me posted on his development…cheers to a happy horse 😛 🙂

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